Being attached to someone really hurts. When you think they’ll stay there for a long period of time, because I thought that. I showed them affection, love, and care, but still, they left. Maybe because the friendship won’t work either way, so we chose to forget and leave. But the pain is still here, it will always be here. The attachment, the love that I invest, everything turned to waste. I risked things though, and I am not regretting that, because I will always risk to someone who’s worth it, and I thought they are all worth it. They all left, they all moved on, they thought I moved on, too. That’s where I’m good at, pretending all things are alright though it really tore me apart. It breaks me to pieces and I can’t pick them up anymore. I miss the memories but not the people whom I spend those memories with. But the what ifs, and random questions that’s getting on in my head every night. As i lay down, the memories keeps flashing back, the flashback that is only inside my head. What if we didn’t give up, what if we tried and tried until it will all be okay. But life won’t let that. Because the only thing that will stay is the only thing that are worth it. And maybe the memories are, but the people inside, isn’t.

I thought it’s easy to forget things, I thought it’s really easy to move on just like that, but it’s not. It’s really not. The future plans, the goals we want to achieve, the road trips we want to do, the concert we want to go, the artists we want to see, those plans are gone now. But life goes on, I can’t just stop here and think all the things that we do wrong, because we all learned something from that friendship we built. The pain is still here but I know, someday it will heal, and maybe I can stand up and risk again on someone to continue those dreams with. I will always risk to someone that is worth it, even if those dreams will shatter, I can always create a new one, a marvelous plans and goals and someone will come to do it with me. Maybe the ones who left is only my journey not my destination. But I know, deep down even if it still hurts, someday, the right people will come, effortlessly.